What was the happiest moment of your life?
Graduating from college and actually getting into a good graduate program.  While this may not be the happiest moment, it’s the proudest.  I never thought I would make it through.  I had a good bit of adversity to face in order to make it all the way.  It felt I was finally accomplishing some of my dreams.
The saddest?
Nothing had happened, except that I had no job, I wasn’t enjoying graduate school and who I thought was the love of my life had a new girlfriend.  Nothing was going my way and I settled into a deep depression.  I wasn’t making healthy decisions, I was being manipulative as hell.  I pushed all of my friends away and I felt complete and utter loneliness.  I didn’t think I was going to make it to the other side and I didn’t know if I wanted to.

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Who was the most important person in your life? Can you tell me about him or her?
My friend who stayed beside me even as I was flushing my life down the toilet.  She cared enough to risk my anger and tell my parents what I was doing.  At the time I was mad, but now I understand and am thankful for her.  She cared.

Who has been the biggest influence on your life? What lessons did they teach you?
Wow, these questions are tough.  Multiple people who I have watched go through tough times and keep their heads up and smiles on their faces.  The people who have cared when I pushed them away.  Those who call when I don’t.  They have taught the how to change and who I want to be and guide me.
Who has been the kindest to you in your life?
There was a girl in high school who reached out to me.  She was a Christian and I was a hellion. She didn’t reach out to me in a preachy way, just in a caring way.  She was there for me.  I still think of her, 10 years later.  She’s married and has children now and I think she’s a youth pastor.  I wanted to be the person she thought I was.  I felt like she saw something in me that I didn’t see.

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What are the most important lessons you’ve learned in life?
This is going to sound lame, but the most important lesson I have learned is that my parents aren’t always right.  And, I don’t have to listen to everything they say or do everything they want me to or be who they think I should be.  I feel like I’ve learned this lesson late, but I grew up in an evangelical home where parents are next to Godliness and it was ingrained in me, by them, that they always know best.  Then, I went on to make many mistakes in my adolescence that proved them right.  Now, I’m an adult.  And I’m realizing what they think isn’t always the right thing for me.  It’s hard to cut those strings and risk their anger, but I have to do it.

What is your earliest memory?

You guys aren’t going to believe this.  I believe my earliest memory is getting hit on the back by the nurse to clear my airways.  Maybe I just remember hearing about it or something, but I’ve always had this memory, from my point of view, of being hit on the back by a nurse and being scared and crying.
Are there any words of wisdom you’d like to pass along to me?
People try to warn you of mistakes they’ve made.  Listen.  Take their stories with a grain of salt.  Don’t start smoking.  Even one cigarette.  You’ll regret it.  Love.  Let people in.

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What are you proudest of in your life?
I’m proudest of the person I’m becoming.  I never in my life thought I would be in the place (mentally) where I am now.
When in life have you felt most alone?
See above.  And when I was in 7th grade and I was reaching out to my mom about feeling depressed and she got mad.

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How has your life been different than what you’d imagined?
First, I never thought I would live to see 26.  Seriously.  I never imagined having 5 tattoos.  I never thought I would feel content, much less happy, about my life and myself (for the most part).
How would you like to be remembered?
I really don’t know.  I don’t think I’ve done anything to be remembered yet.  I think people will remember me as being angry and I don’t want that.  I’m working to change people’s perception of me, which is changing me.  For the better.

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Do you have any regrets?
Starting smoking, as I have previously stated multiple times.  And, too many others to list.  Although, I don’t know if most of them are regrets.  I would probably change them if I could go back, but I can’t and they’ve made me the person I am today.  And, I’m okay with that.
What does your future hold?
I have no idea.  I just work hard every day to make it as bright as possible.  I do see myself selling at least one thing in my Etsy store. :)

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