2010 was an interesting year for me. Very interesting. Definitely the most life changing year I’ve ever had and definitely the best year. Despite losing almost everything that I thought was really important, I’ve never been happier. Life couldn’t be better. Chico’s father walked out on us, but I needed it. We weren’t good together. I lost my job, but if that hadn’t happened, I wouldn’t be going back to school. Which I need to do. I’ve been thinking about it for a long time.
This year, I also stopped being angry. Because of this, I lost a lot of my readership, which, was hard at first. I felt like I was doing so much great stuff and changing so much and there were less readers. But, I’m slowly getting it back. If I never get as many readers, it’ll be ok. I feel at peace with myself and the world. I don’t need to write about my anger anymore. I don’t need to feel so outraged. I realized I’m not being victimized by the world. Everything just is.
I was driving earlier this week, and I was overcome with serenity. “I love my life,” I thought. Then I realized I’ve never, really, seriously thought that and totally meant it before. In 2010, the lights in my mind were turned on. Every day I work on myself a little more and the lights get a little brighter.
Here’s to an equally, if not more magical 2011. I can’t wait.
(Oh, and guess what?! My room is clean, can you believe it?)