Today, I moved. For the first time in four years. And I had to leave behind my two beloved cats, one of whom I’ve previously referred to as my soul mate. I’ve raised those two since they were wee babies. But, my, now former, neighbor is going to take them. She already bought them a 3 story cat condo and a heated bed for the porch. So they won’t get cold. This shit plugs into the wall. They’re definitely in good hands. Even so, it’s still sad. And it’s the end of an era in my life. Which is scary and sad and stressful, but exciting all al the same time. I’m typing this is my new room while lying on my unmade bed, right on top of the mattress. I’m too exhausted to go through all of my shit to find my sheets that probably need to be washed anyway. Chico is doing nervous little circles around the bed. I have an
ass ton a lot of homework I should be doing, but I’m too tired.
The amazing thing was, my family and friends really showed up for me today. I called my brother in a panic and on the verge of tears earlier this week and asked him to come help me pack stuff (since I had exactly three weeks notice) because I was so overwhelmed with the thought of leaving my house and my street and my neighborhood and my kitties that I was barely able to wrap my mind around the thought of packing, but I had to. He graciously agreed and drove through rush hour traffic on a Friday to work for 7 hours straight and help me get everything ready to move.
Then my parents and friend came out to help. And they did so with smiles on their faces and did what I needed done, and it was amazing. I can hardly believe all of the wonderful people I have in my life. My friends coming to sacrifice their Saturdays to selflessly help me and my parents coming to help me because I needed it. It was hard work, let me tell you. And my mom did her best not to give me a hard time about the dust. This all lit my heart on fire with love and thankfulness and joy (not joy for moving, mind you…you know what I mean). It was unbelievable for a person like me. Who has spent my whole life pushing people away and isolating and feeling like an island. But, in the past 6 months, I’ve made an effort. With my family, my friends, but mostly with myself and the pieces have fallen into place. It blows me away Every. Single. Day.
This is the beginning for me. I had to let go of all those other things first. The ego. Then the boyfriend. Then the job. Then security. Then the house and things. Goodness, I have soooooo many things! Now I can embrace the future, school, new friends, new experiences, a new me :)
Stay tuned for the introduction of my new roommate, Roomio.