Today, thus far, I have only smoked one cigarette. Yay me. And, I smoked only a few during the work day yesterday.
But, when I got home I totally fell off the wagon and smoked an entire pack in like 4 hours. Boo me.
I believe that starting smoking is my greatest regret. I have done a lot of stupid things, but this is the most lasting. I remember being 16 and working as a hostess at Chili’s and some 25 year old dude came over to me and was like, “You look stupid” and I was all like, “I’m so cool, I’m smoking.” And he’s all like, “When I was your age and I was smoking, someone told me to quit and that they regretted starting smoking and I didn’t believe him because I thought I was cool, like you do, but now I remember that all the time…you think about that.” And, of course, I rolled my eyes and was all like, “Whatever man, I’m 16, I know everything, duh.” Guess what?!! I think about that guy all the time and wish I had listened to him!! Ironic, huh? It is, don’t worry.
The moral of this story is that hopefully I will be able to quit smoking. Because it’s hard (the quitting, not the smoking). And, it makes your skin wrinkly and old looking. And, most importantly, it can give you cancer and/or emphysema. Both of those suck and I heard that with emphysema you just aren’t able to breathe anymore and you just die. That sounds really bad. Like, really bad. Not to mention that smoking is really expensive and just because Obama decides that he wants to quit and is punishing everyone even though he can totally afford it who knows how high the taxes will go. No one. Except Obama and friends.
I feel a little sick from lack of nicotine. Don’t mind me over here.
P.S. Feel free to leave me really encouraging comments. I needs those.
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November 10, 2009 at 3:50 pm
Pars_nip
Well, Miss S, it’s like this…
In the UK here, a plane load full of people die every day due to smoking related disease. God knows what that amounts to in the US, never mind the rest of the world. I’m thinking that if one aeroplane were to crash every day, anywhere, there would be public outcry. Governments would ‘do’ something about it, pronto! But they don’t. Why? Tax revenue perhaps? Ken Clarke (Former UK Health minister) was/is also a chairman of British American Tobacco. The links stinks.
BAT are happily handing out freebie cigs (Fags here in the UK – haha..) to third world consumers in a bid (allegedly yer honour) to get them hooked and thereby become a future income stream as the Western market is slowly drying up. Ken Clarke and his cronies are getting chauffered around in big fuck-off cars.. and who’s paying for it? You are. To paraphrase Alan Carr..”You’re a fuckin mug”
Anyway, encouragement, yes.. keep off the cancer sticks. You’re too pretty to die, and we’d miss your tweets..
But then again as Lois from Family Guy says “If she smokes, she pokes..” Maybe there’s hope for us all yet :-)
November 10, 2009 at 10:46 pm
Mel
I quit a year and a half ago after about 8 years of smoking and what worked for me was cutting back slowly. When I moved into my apartment I never smoked inside, so once the winter came there was no way I was going outside for smoke so I just went without. After that it was a little at a time until finally I was down to only one or two a day and then they started making me dizzy and I didn’t like it. I think you have to be ready to quit mentally and then you’ll be able to do it.
November 11, 2009 at 7:20 am
jjmdd
You can do it. I have tried and failed more times than I’d like to count, but you just have to keep trying! Don’t beat yourself up about it if you fall off the wagon once in a while…just keep trying.
November 11, 2009 at 11:19 am
dianne
try to stay in the moment
I think that helps
just taking the first step is a big accomplishment!!
November 11, 2009 at 6:06 pm
Amy
When you find out the secret tell me. I just thought about this as I bought a new pack today. I don’t want cancer. I don’t want heart disease and dammit if I end up with them anyway I don’t want it to be because I’m just an ass. I hate that I smoke and I actually quit last year.. for a YEAR. 12/27/2007 to, I think, 12/31/2008. Don’t ask me why I started again. I’m an ass, I already said that. I’ve almost been back to it for a whole year and I’m so disappointed in me.
You can do this. Just remember that each day you don’t smoke is one more day smoke free. That’s how I thought of it. But maybe you shouldn’t listen to me. I do know that the next time I quit I’m not going to consider myself a non-smoker until I’m at 3 years smoke free. Yup-yup.
November 11, 2009 at 6:10 pm
Windsor Grace
I really appreciate your comment. I have heard from others that even if one quits for 20 years, they still feel an urge to smoke. It is soooo hard! Thanks to you and to everyone who is cheering me on. :)
November 11, 2009 at 7:39 pm
Alex
Hey!
I really liked your comment so I thought I might like your blog, and I do. I love your way of writing and you subjects.
And good luck with the stop smoking. I’ve tried that a fe times. For me it’s not so much about the urge for nicotine as the mental urge; I like to smoke, I’ve kind of identyfied who I am and the person in that picture smokes. But you seem to be a strong person, I’m sure you’re going to make it!
and a little tip: 1. chew gum. The motion of smoking has keept you company many times waiting for the bus, a person or whatever. So take up a pack of gum, chew it and have a paper with you to read.
And don’t be afraid of ucing nocotine products, with moderation. It is better to chew that nicotine gum or wear that sollu bandage then lighting up a cigarette.